Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.YESTERDAY
After many years of living a near loveless existence. I am now open to sharing love with someone special. Early on in my life, I eagerly decided to romantically disconnect. I checked out of the love game. You see, i had fallen in love with someone and when the feelings of love wasn’t reciprocated to my standards (he did not show his love for me the way I thought he should), I emotionally disconnected. All the suitors and semi-love relationships thereafter were mediocre in my opinion and largely due to my own creation.
I honestly did not want anyone to fall in love with me, because I did not want to reciprocate love because I didn’t want to face the hurt that I felt was on the other side. So, I chose to ration out little, itty, bitty pieces of my love. Just enough to make the man I was in a relationship with feel as if I loved and cared for him.
He knew it wasn’t my all or my everything, but it was all that I was willing to give at the time. This lack of loving on my part, more often than not, created more disharmony in my relationships. But, I was comfortable with the discourse that this caused rather than allow myself to let go and share my love.
Now that I think about it, I tried to control how I was going to give love and how I was going to receive it. All of this, in an effort to avoid being hurt. I now see that it was more painful not to love than it was to love and risk being hurt.
I now feel I am ready to LOVE. For the first time in my life I can express how I expect it to look and feel.
Love: It is a loving, warm, enjoyable and caring family in a delightful household.
Love: It is in the form of a loving, passionate, caring man that I respect and admire. He is someone, who loves, supports and accepts me for just being. He is someone I am 100% comfortable being with as well. He is someone who makes me smile on the inside, as well as, physically on the outside. The love that we will share with one another is one that I feel within every cell of my body now. This love is so deep and natural, but most of all it is mutual. It resonates from the inside, which is a sign that I love myself, therefore I am open and ready to share a deep love with someone.
Have you decided to open your heart and allow love to manifest in your life. If so, I would like to hear your story.
Until next time, love, peace and *muah*